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^-^Tuesday, October 27, 2009

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COLBIE----

I WON'T

I won't do what you told me

I won't do what you said (no)

I'm not gonna stop feeling

I'm not gonna forget it

I don't wanna start over

I don't wanna pretend it

You are not my lover

Guess you're only my friend

Cause when it took my heart

It took it all

When you gave it back

I fell apart

Well, maybe you're not right for me

Maybe this is hard to see

I get lost in your beauty

And I just stop questioning

Cause when you took my heart

You took it all

When you gave it back

It fell apart

You say it's easier to burn than to build

You say it's easier to hurt than to heal

But I say you lose when you give up what you love

And I've lived my life without you long enough

You Got Me :
You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes
I can't pretend though I try to hide - I like you
I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat
I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe - you got me
You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet
And that crooked smile of yours it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough
I'm a stoup I need to fill me up.
It feels so good it must be love
It's everything that I've been dreaming of.
I give up. I give in. I let go. Let's begin.
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you.

I can't imagine what it'd be like
Livin everyday in this life - without you.
Without you.
One look from you I know you understand
This mess we're in you know is just so out of hand.

Fallin' For You :
I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

Droplets :
(feat. Jason Reeves)

[Colbie Caillat:]
I'm leaving you
I'm not sure if that's what I should do
It hurts so bad
I'm wanting you but can't go back
Trying to find, to find
That all elusive piece of mind
Stuck here somehow
Shrouded beneath my fear and doubt
And I don't need it

Cause I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting for
The droplets, droplets

[Jason Reeves:]
You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I'm with you
Everything is effortless
You know it's true
My eyes are painted with regret and I don't need it

Cause I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your skin

You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me

[Jason Reeves (Colbie Caillat):]
You left a mark (you left a mark)
She left a mark (he left)
She left (he left)
She left a mark
And I don't (I don't)
Need it. (Need it)

Break Through :
Why is it so hard
It was so long ago
I don't know where to start or what to say to you
I've been all alone needing you by my side
But it's not too late
Maybe we just needed time
Can we try to let it go?
If we don't than we'll never know
I try to break through but you know that it's up to you

We say that time is meant to heal
But it still hurts inside
I wish that none of this was real
Cause we're so far behind

You've been all alone
Needing me by your side
But it's not too late
Maybe we just needed time
Can we try to let it go
If we don't than we'll never know
I try to break through
But you know that it's up to you

And I know that our love can grow
But this damn river needs to flow
I will try to break through but you know that it's up to you

It's time to make a stand
Maybe it won't last
But we should take this chance

"Realize"

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

shine. this world this Life

6:48 AM

^-^Monday, October 19, 2009

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CHILDISH

Some bitches need to get slapping.

blaming others for things tat they did n cos i were absent n i got blamed. oh bitches! like ii care?!

ii dont care that u messing around with me make me get into the other drama

my temp is up like first i hate tat place with or without any drama its already nice tat i wanna wake up to get there

but you guys took me into the drama

n im done with drama since like long time ago

so you are just like children that just got introduced to drama

you guys dont mean anything to me so yeah i better go out and ii hope soon i can ditch tat damn place.made me paid seven zeros millions to wasted and NOTHING

and i am way cooler to catch you DOWN!

no uniform can fit me but saint laurensia and tat already b my last

so end of discussion

shine. this world this Life

6:51 AM

^-^Saturday, October 10, 2009

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DOT DOT DOT

finally today i met up with lorensianss.

okay almost actually everyday i met at least a lorensian.

hahaha but finally today i met with my beloved friends.

today is so messed up bestie made my mom pissed off

made me too!erkkkk.

but anyway tomorrow i gotta go to BANGKOK N MALAY SO YEAHHH

WISH ME HAVE FUN!!!!! :)

shine. this world this Life

9:14 AM

^-^Thursday, October 8, 2009

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just some words to say.

like i just had a really bad conversation that made all my mood gone.

read this carefully

IF YOU WANNA BE MY LOVER

YOU BETTER FORGET MY PAST

got it?

shine. this world this Life

10:08 AM

^-^Monday, October 5, 2009

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what's wrong?

INSTRUCTIONS:

1. Copy this whole list into your journal.

2. Bold the things that are true about you.

3. Whatever you don't bold is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.

02. I don't watch much TV these days.

03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.

04. I love sleeping.

05. I have loads of books.

06. I once slept in a toilet.

07. I love playing video games.

08. I adore marijuana.

09. I watch porn movies.

10. I watch them with my father.

11. I like sharks.

12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.

13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.

14. I like J. Bush.

15. People are cool.

16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.

17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.

18. I have a lot to learn.

19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.

20. I'm really really smart.

21. I've never broken someone's bones.

22. I have a secret.

23. I hate snow.

24. I drink only milk.

25. Punk rock rules.

26. I hate Bill Gates!

27. I love Chinese food.

28. I would hate to be famous.

29. I am not a morning person.

30. I wear glasses.

31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.

32. I have potential.

33. I'm pure Japanese.

34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical.

35. I have a twin.

36. I wear a padded bra.

37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.

38. I'm left-handed.

39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.

40. I don't like horror movies.

41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.

42. People hate me usually.

43. I love pop music.

44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.

45. I hate parking fines.

46. I know national anthem of my country by heart.

47. I know more than two languages.

48. I spend too much time on the computer.

49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window.

50. I live on a ground floor.

51. I don't like chocolate.

52. I'd like to be more original.

53. I've lied.

54. Cocks are my favorite birds.

55. I want to conquer the world.

56. I wonder what happens when you die.

57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.

58. Eat your dog!

59. I love to exercise.

60. I hate chemistry with a passion.

61. I love to write.

62. I like changes.

63. I hate going to class.

64. I am afraid to die.

65. I hate dish washing.

66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.

67. My nails are nine inch long.

68. My favorite color is black.

69. I like to sleep on the floor.

70. I am hopeless at cooking.

71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.

72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.

73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN.

74. I hate government.

75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend.

76. I'm too nice for my own good.

77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.

78. I don't trust newspapers.

79. I like debating.

80. I live in a vagon.

81. I clean my room once a month.

82. I'm scared of American fast food.

83. I have a third eye.

84. I love Mozambique.

85. I don't trust any religion.

86. I used to play with Barbies because all the other girls were doing it.

87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.

88. I like listening to wind chimes.

89. I'm very disorganized.

90. My hair is long and straight.

91. I earn a lot.

92. I don't like spicy food.

93. I keep a diary.

94. I can't do cartwheels.

95. I am very lazy.

96. I'm sarcastic.

97. I think my hair is annoying.

98. I'm very sensitive.

99. I love being "ab-normal." :D

100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue

and make it all about what about me.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.

02. I don't watch much TV these days.

03. I love creamy mushroom soup

04. I love sleeping.

05. I hate books

06. I once slept in a toilet.

07. I tried love games and i failed

08. I adore pure water

09. I talk as long i still alive.

10. I adore my fam.

11. I like pictures.

12. I love adorable kids. They just cute and make me want to come back to my childhood

13. I was born with 4.2 kg. I was a fat cute kid

14. I like Blake Lively

15. People are cool.

16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.

17. I have my religion bracelet

18. I have a lot to learn.

19. I wear my rosary everywhere with myself.

20. I believe that i am smart but i'm too lazy to be one of them

21. I've never broken someone's bones.

22. I have a secret.

23. I shared it with my best friends

24. I can't live without others

25. I love to do freak dance

26. I love dance floors

27. I love Chinese food.

28. I don't mind to be famous.

29. I am not a morning person.

30. I have clear eyes. People love them

31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.

32. I have potential.

33. I'm chinese indonesian

34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical.

35. I have a hot sister!

36. I wear bikinis

37. I don't mind to do a lot of maths

38. I'm right-handed

39. I hate dramas. had too much of those things.

40. I don't like horror movies.

41. I like to put my legs up on him at his car

42. People hate me or love me. i don't know just chill :)

43. I love pop music.

44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.

45. I hate parking fines.

46. I am single and happy as a clam

47. I know more than two languages.

48. I spend too much time on the computer.

49. I love my macbook a lot. its my boy

50. I live in complicated life

51. I love hersheys

52. I'd like to be more original.

53. I've lied.

54. I hate pets

55. I want to change the world.

56. I wonder what happens when you die.

57. I love tv dramas

58. I would like to eat sushi then ramen

59. I love to exercise.

60. I hate chemistry with a passion.

61. I love to write.

62. I like changes.

63. I hate going to class.

64. I am afraid to die.

65. I hate dish washing.

66. My hair is long, black, and wavy.

67. My nails are those cool long nails

68. I don't have favorite color. I like to be colorful.

69. I like to sleep on soft things.

70. I am hopeless at cooking.

71. I can make all people to like me if i want to

72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.

73. I am online a lot. almost 24/7

74. I wish my next will be better then my ex

75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend.

76. I'm too nice for my own good.

77. I like to write about things. Things just come through my head

78. I don't read newspaper. i open news on internet

79. I like debating.

80. I would like to try living in the mansion

81. I hate clean my room

82. I'm scared of American fast food.

83. I hate my thoughts of negative things going around me

84. I hate how people judge other only from their look.

85. I trust on Jesus Christ

86. I used to play with Barbies because all the other girls were doing it.

87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.

88. I like listening music all day long

89. I'm very disorganized.

90. For me crush and love aren't really far

91. I learn from my past. unfortunately keep doing the same mistakes

92. I don't like spicy food.

93. I would never say goodbye if i know i will never met them anymore

94. I can drive. hopefully its safe

95. I am very lazy.

96. I need someone to talk to. still can't be the real independent

97. I think my hair is annoying.

98. I keep trying to think positively. but every time i try i'm failed

99. I love being "ab-normal." :D

100. I would like to be called different then called pretty as the other girls

shine. this world this Life

6:41 AM

^-^Thursday, October 1, 2009

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hey blog. haven't wrote so much these day since nothing really going on with me.

okay this is october which its about 12 weeks left here. erkkk i need to plan all the things rite in time. time goes by so fast man.

btw today HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR JOANNE!LOVE YOU GIRL.

okay yesterday we had an earthquake not we i'm not included. it was at PADANG and that was a big one. feel bad for them. but CHEER UP:D life isn't always about great things rite?

and all the things have the end. just have different time so make this life worth for you

lebaran holiday was just okay. i didn't do anything. just hanged out but it was kinda bored

BANGKOK is coming i am going to bangkok NEXT WEEK. on the 11th! my cousin has the married thingy going on. anyway HELLO THAILAND IM COMING :D

missing LAGUNA so much. they have the homecoming week this week!!oh bitttch erkksss

so jealous. n i heard aileen gonna have her homecoming also soon. ohhh GOD i miss them.

i miss the DANCES so much. i love the dance floors the DJs the DRESSes the HEELs the DATEs and everything. i wonder wat if i were there like really staying still. i miss SHARON also. okay my cutie cousin who gonna ditch homecoming for piano recital. what a NERD babe??!

and junior prom APRIL 10th. wish i can make it. she gonna bring me in. hope i can get in tho. and she gonna be my DATE. watever the thing is only i wanna go to JUNIOR PROM. i miss how we all hunt for a dress! you cant even imagine cos it is not happening here. erkkk. HAHAHA i imagine i go to prom with a GIRL which my cousin and in a limo with her friends. but its okay thats all cool. and lets do the freak dance with hotties, ofcourse for this i need guys!LOL

but im not sure yet how can manage this thing cos im gonna be in seattle so wish i can flight to CALI on this weekend.

my seattle thing is so messed up. hate it. i should call for the homestay thing tomorrow. geez i am fifteen but im not sure how to start a good conversation with random people. oh jerk

ohh yeah currently i have a 'les' thingy which NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL and tomorrow i have a physics test that i don't even understand. yesterday i had a biology one and tat was suck all the multiple choices i chose randomly didn't understan A WORD. for the essay i made paragraphs just like for english which just BERBACOT ria. but today i was kinda lucky i got 70 for my ICT which i am LATE and i think i don't deserve that grade at all. like my friends got 39, 29, etc

ahahah HEY SMARTIE JOSHINE xD

i don't have any important thing this week. my passion for picture these days just went away. that stranges rite?

anyway my mom so addicted with her new 'hello kitty' tote. wait i don't even think that is a tote. my dad bought it for me from hongkong but i was like noooo im not gonna use it. cos it is positively for like 4 graders maximum. i was like give to my cousin but my mom was like noo its a cute one i can put all the things in. then she's been using it for this whole month. erkkk she is the weirdest mom ever. maaf ini keknya ga penting ya . hahahaha

ohh about twitter. follow me twitter.com/jbriane i've been using it for months and its kinda worth. it just simple and don't forget to follow twitter.com/radityadika too. you gonna LAUGHING MY ASS OFF. no his ass off he just too random and stupid. :ppppp

shine. this world this Life

4:55 AM